Thursday, February 20, 2014

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What's happening, everything is crumbling. I am trying to build a wall, brick by brick, layer by layer, that will block all the incoming pains but still, one shot, and everything falls. One sob from her, my act of bravery vanished.

I want to cry, the heavy feeling in my chest is so intense, I want to stabbed it to make the pain go away.

I want to have Mara Dyer's power, to be able to kill someone just by thinking about it, I want to find my own Noah who can make me feel satisfied, happy...complete.


I have company yet I felt so...alone.

My feelings of disappointments, depression, confusion, frustration and grief is piling up, I want to share it to someone, but I'm lonely. When I'm starting to trust someone they will just leave me alone, when I try to open up, they don't understand, When I try to express my feelings they just block it. I can't do anything about it.



 I'm desperate.



I want to go away, to fade away and go to other timeline or place, a better place that will prevent these things from happening. I just want to disappear.


I want to be happy,


I don't want to be alone,

Help me. PLEASE, HELP ME.

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