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He arrived, appearing blissful like nothing happened, like nothing is still happening, like he did not even made a huge gap between him and us.

He provided everything, everything we ask, he'll buy, everything we want, he'll provide.

But it's not enough,

Physically he is with us, but his heart and mind is in somewhere else.

I can sense his betrayal, I can sense his infidelity and it hurts so much whenever she pushed him to be honest yet he neither deny nor admit.


Seven years of disloyalty.


I don't want to hate him, but I don't want to leave her by herself, bearing the pain alone. I can't afford to see her crying and hurt.


I don't know what to believe anymore,

I don't know what to feel anymore.

The air is heavy at this haven.


My day is to come, celebrating it will be very painful for me. Knowing that both of them just act, pretending that nothing's happening between them.



Everything is crumbling, nothing is intact anymore.


My only wish will be....to have a power. a chance to bring everything back to normal, to make this pain go away. to make this longing fade. To smooth all the wrinkles.



Gone are the flaws


and



welcome back sincere smiles and honest hearts.

Gone are the tears of sadness


and



be replaced by tears of joy.


I don't want to feel this again, I don't want to be suffocated by this thick ambiance of pessimistic thoughts and unfaithfulness.





We're drowning.



Please



Bring us back to normal.




Please.






Please.







Please.







Make me believe that everything will be alright,







That everything will be back.






Please.


















































Make my family whole again.




I beg you.