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I just realized after scanning my previous entries, this blog is nothing but my ride to the depressing place in my life.

Honestly, its almost 2 months since my last entry, I thought that this feeling of loneliness and depression will sleep forever but I am so devastated that my supposedly great escape to this world and reality will be the one who will wake this feeling up.


Now the feeling of helplessness is back.


again, I want someone to just check up on me.


again, i want someone to pull me out from the darkness.


Now, I just want someone to ask  me if I'm alright?



That pain of being lonely is back.





How the hell did I pushed this feeling away? How did I lived those two months without feeling an ounce of sadness? How did I manage to be happy?



Why am I so confused?




I am everywhere and nowhere.




I am here yet I am lost.





I know the answer but I don't know it.




Everything about me is contradicting.






Please, someone, please.